I
am 21 years old and was diagnosed as having SLE lupus in August 2001. I
had unexplained problems long before the diagnosis, ever since I can
remember. They caught my lupus while there was still no organ problems.
I was so lucky my parents cared for me to find a cause, as it took 6
different types of doctors and more than 4 years to discover the source
of my problems.
I went through a lot of struggles trying to be and feel normal. I have
had health problems on and off since the 1st grade. Many people didn't
understand how bad my health was emotionally and physically. I didn't
want people to know I had a disease, as I do not like to be given pity
by strangers. I thought I had lupus for a year before the doctors
figured it out. Many of them wouldn't listen to me; they would just blow
me and my parents off. They said we were overreacting and that I was
just trying to get out of school. My friends became fewer and fewer, as
I was different and they did not understand my problems and limitations.
I started missing school in fifth grade. By the eighth grade, I missed
over one quarter of my classes. I was taken out of school early in the
ninth grade and tried to continue my education through various programs
offered by the public schools. However, all of these programs were not
set up to deal with my varying patterns of illness and fatigue. Between
these and a bit of home schooling, I got my GED "on schedule" with my
friends graduating from high school. I have tried to take some college
courses, but I am unable to maintain regular attendance. I have been
unable to hold a job.
I have come to accept my diffences and limitations, so I am willing to
tell my story. Since I was a kid, no one would listen or care about my
lupus. Maybe people might listen now. Toxic medications that do not
always control symptoms are a nightmare, literally.